everything looks perfect from far away

Maybe I should start using tumblr again… I have many thoughts and feelings that need...

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Maybe I should start using tumblr again…

I have many thoughts and feelings that need expressing!!!

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Goodbye America!!! I’ll see you in…a year? To my...

Sat, 28 Jul 2012 14:58:32 -0700

Goodbye America!!! I’ll see you in…a year?

To my friends and family:
Thank you. Thank you for your love and support, for your warm wishes and kind words. You all mean so much to me, and I will certainly mis you terribly. Japan is a beautiful place, with a lot to offer, but Japan doesn’t have you, and for that it will always be lacking. I love you, I love you, I love you.

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Haircut!

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Haircut!

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nae dongsaeng~ aishiteru~~~

Sun, 08 Jul 2012 14:51:25 -0700

nae unnie~

gamjeongs: WHY DO MY BEST UNNIRS ALWAYS LEAVE ME ;u; First Christina goes to Korea and now Meghan...

Thu, 05 Jul 2012 19:28:00 -0700

gamjeongs:

WHY DO MY BEST UNNIRS ALWAYS LEAVE ME ;u;

First Christina goes to Korea

and now Meghan is going to Japan

IS IT ME

DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG

WHY ARE YOU LEAVING ME

i’ll come back i promise!! and i’ll always be here for you, if you ever need advice, a hug, or just a place to rant, you know that. you are my tiniest cutest cutie pie, i’ll never leave you!

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5 days, and I already want to leave. Nothing is going right, everything is pissing me off, and I...

Thu, 28 Jun 2012 15:41:34 -0700

5 days, and I already want to leave. Nothing is going right, everything is pissing me off, and I miss having the freedom to live my life the way I want to. At this rate, I don’t think I will make it until the 27th before spontaneously combusting into a rage monster. After living by myself for so long, and not having been home for longer than a week in the last two years, having to work on my parent’s timetable, according to how they want me to do things in my life, is so grating, I don’t even think I can stand it.

I love my parents, I love my family, I do, I swear, but after being fairly independent for the last four years, and especially independent the last two, I can’t stand living here for so long, even if it is only a month.

I need my alone time. I need time to sit in the dark and not have someone question everything I do and don’t do. I need time to figure out my life, but I don’t get time to do any of that because I am too busy trying to follow someone else’s rules.

This can’t be a unique situation. I’m sure other people feel like this too, but I honestly don’t know how to deal with it. My mom comes back from work in an hour or so, and I don’t even want to look at her face, let alone talk to her. She made me so mad today, invalidating what I had to say and my feelings. And this isn’t the first time she’s done it to me, even after I have called her out on it. I don’t actually know how to do deal with her hypocrisy sometimes, especially because if I try to tell her how it makes me feel, I’m the bad guy. I’m the one who doesn’t listen, it’s my fault for reacting badly, I don’t know how I actually feel. She’s told me my whole life that I am more emotionally mature than her, and when I try to maturely articulate my position, I am told I’m a child, that I think I know everything, but I don’t, and that I’m the one who is being ridiculous. Its never, oh maybe you have a point, its always some sort of guilt-trip-y passive aggressive way to tell me that I don’t know anything and I can’t possibly actually know what is best for me.

And then whatever. She gets to go on with the rest of her day thinking that she is always right and whatever I thought to do was going to hurt me in the long run, while I sit here, rendered completely distraught and totally unproductive, because my own mother felt like insulting my intelligence and invalidating what I had to say based on I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT.

Part of me thinks I should have never come home.

Does anybody understand why ERC Academic Advising seems determined to take my job from me?

Wed, 27 Jun 2012 17:20:47 -0700

Does anybody understand why ERC Academic Advising seems determined to take my job from me?

And here I sit, as my old life is broken into pieces and put in...

Sun, 24 Jun 2012 10:11:32 -0700

And here I sit, as my old life is broken into pieces and put in bags and boxes. Moving out, moving on.

A glimpse of what I did today.

Sun, 17 Jun 2012 20:51:27 -0700

A glimpse of what I did today.